Control Freak: Part 3 - Resurrecting Trust

When everything starts pointing back to trust

God’s been speaking to me in themes lately, and it’s been fascinating to not just understand but almost be able to see myself catch the cues He’s been giving me.

There have been so many different revelations I have been having in so many areas of my life but somehow they have tied back together into one common theme - trust God.

All The Things

At the Retreat, I found that I don’t trust God with every aspect of my life, and it’s the root of me working myself so hard, trying to prove myself, and hardly praying over certain things.

Last Friday, I attended my church’s annual women’s conference and the speaker reiterated the idea of God as a Father and how He wants to care for us, but we must trust that He will give us our desires - if it’s His will - in the right season.

During our weekly corporate devotional time this week, we completed a test that told us what spiritual season we are in. My results were Winter, and basically, this season means that God may be mostly quiet and just working where I can’t see it.

I remember scrolling through my podcast app a few weeks ago and seeing this particular show have a few episodes about spiritual seasons but I skipped over them. The test we took was created by this podcaster! So I went back and listened to the Winter season episode. It was so good and it went into more details about not only what this season could look like for you, but also how to live in this season well. The biggest takeaways I caught were rest, get in the Word, embrace the silence and slow down, and trust God. She mentioned this is usually a season with some character development and it can also be used as a time of preparation and planning for what’s next. I have been saying I want to write a book . . . She also said that even though it’s a quiet season and there isn’t much exciting things happening it doesn’t mean that God has abandoned you, but maybe He is speaking to you in a different way. Maybe through friends, a conversation, a song. All the things!

Slowing Down and Letting Go

I was encouraged to read John Mark Comer’s book The Ruthless Elimination of Hurry by a member of the care team at my church when I got back from the Retreat three weeks ago and it also tied into the theme of things I’ve been seeing. I listened to the audiobook to get through it faster, and it was like he was reading me like a book. He talked about slowing down and living a life like Jesus and some character development that can come with that.

Last week I went to coffee with a friend to catch up about life and how the Retreat went for me. After I finished my spill about the things I felt God revealing to me at the Retreat and leading up to Trey’s birthday, she shared with me a sermon she heard at another church the night before and that I should really listen to it. The sentence that stuck out to her that she so graciously shared with me was, “You are holding your child back from building a relationship with God.” Another reminder of me trying to control things and not trusting God fully with my kid that HE gave me to care for.

It’s been a crazy few weeks and I have been in awe just allowing it to happen. I didn’t know what I was going to write about this week, but I know I wanted to share something. All of those things can be topics and blog posts of their own honestly, but I couldn’t figure out which to share first.

What Is God Asking You to Trust Him With?

Then yesterday morning a friend asked me, “What have you buried that God is asking you to resurrect?”

I must have pondered for a while and couldn’t really figure out what exactly the question was asking, so I did in fact ask ChatGPT to rephrase the question. A rephrased question was this: What seed have you thought was dead that God is ready to grow again?

With a better understanding of the question and some reflection, I realized that maybe I have been burying trust, rest, and surrender. Maybe He’s asking me to fully trust Him with my life and rest in knowing that He has good plans for me.

And maybe He’s asking the same of you too.

If you’ve been feeling like you’re in a Winter season—quiet, uncertain, buried—maybe that’s not the end of something.

Maybe it’s just the beginning of something God is getting ready to grow again.

So I’ll leave you with this question: What have you buried that God is asking you to resurrect?